Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Looking on the BRIGHT side...

I read a post on my cousin's blog the other day about an amazing woman that she knows that, despite life's problems, always has a smile on her face. I know someone like that too. It never ceases to amaze me at her strength and her constant smile. It's something that I've honestly been working on. I want to be one of those people. I havn't always been like that though, sad to say. But that's ok...I'm not focusing on the past these days. I am realizing how much I TRULY have to be grateful for in my life.

A VERY wise man has taught me that I, Tami, am responsible for my own happiness. Simple, right? You've heard it before, right? Well I'm JUST now beginning to accept that and it has totally changed my outlook on life. When I feel my self dragging I literally have to tell myself that I am the one who is making me feel like that. This sounds silly now that I'm typing it. I'm so subborn. Maybe that's why it's taken me so long to truly live like this. But I'm only 33 (for a few more weeks anyway). I have so many good years to live and be happy! It's such a great feeling.

I really do have sooooo much to be grateful for. I am thankful for Steve and for the hard work that we are doing together to make our marriage GREAT. I do love you so much you know? I'm so grateful for my kids. We have so much fun together. I love goofing off right along with them. It's totally changed how I look at motherhood. It's so much fun to get down on the floor and play with them or dance until we are so tired to Mama Mia songs. I am so grateful to our friends who have helped us in ways that you can never imagine. You know who you are and know how important you are in our lives. Thank you!! I am so grateful for my family. And even though it's hard to have them live so far away we support each other and love each other. I look forward to each visit more than you know! Every time we are together it just gets better and more fun!

But most importantly I am so thankful to have Heavenly Father and Christ in my life again. I've struggled on and off with the Gospel. That's no secret. But it really has taken hitting rock bottom to find the light of Christ and His Gospel again. And honestly, I couldn't be happier. I do have a true testimony of the Gospel and of Joseph Smith. Those of you that really know me are probably falling on the floor right now!! Get back up and continue reading this novel. I KNOW that he was a prophet of God and that he restored the Gospel to the Earth. I'm excited to finally be able to bear my testimony and truly mean it from the bottom of my heart. I know that the Book of Mormon is true and it makes me happy to read it. The Gospel is simple. Having it in your life can make you happy. I know that because it's made me happy. I know that the temple is a sacred place and that it can bring you happiness like you've never known before. I look forward to going back again. I can't wait to go up to Rexburg and go through with my family up there. They've been such a support for me and I truly am blessed. I can't wait to be able to go back. I won't have to wait too long!

I know that having Christ in your life, regardless of what religion a person is, can bring happiness!! He never leaves our side. We just need to pray and He will come to us. I know it because it happened to me. I just think religion and spirituality is so important now. I used to not believe that but I know who put those things in my mind. Could it be...Satan? Ok...jokes aside you SNL lovers you!!

I know that I don't have to be a stuffy, fuddy duddy to truly believe and to live my life according to Christ's teachings. And I LOVE that. I don't have to change. I just have things I do that need to change. It doesn't change who I am. Does that make sense? I hope so.

I'm sorry this is such a long post. But I really felt like I needed to say the things I've said.

5 comments:

Tiffany said...

Tami you are an amazing woman. I look to you so often for guidence. You are a great example to me in so many ways!! I love you so much and glad that I have you in my life, I don't know what I would do with out you... I am glad things are starting to become clearer for you. I think you have always had a testimony ... just second guessed it sometimes. Which can be a good thing when it makes us stronger. I agree that you do have a great man for a hubby. He loves you so much and would do anything for you and the kids...as for your kids... oh I love them too they are so sweet and you can thank yourself and Steve for bringing up such great kids. Your such a great mom and friend!!Thank you for sharing this I needed it!!

The Dinner Belle said...

Doesn't it feel good?!!! I'm so, so happy for you.
I know you thought that you would shock us all but I'm not surprised that you have found a way to uncover something that had been inside you all along.
Life is so good.
Just be you and keep smiling.

Heidi said...

You go girl.. I love you tons.. And I look forward to every wednesday to see you.. YOu are doing awesome. I am so prod of you .. You have always been a huge support & example for me.. Thank you..

Bruce Kusch said...

We can't wait for you to come to Rexburg either! It's 8am on Friday morning and I just finished a session. We love you so much. I love you so much!

Dad

The Pett Shop said...

Tami

I didn't know you all that well growing up but I found your blog through Facebook and I just wanted to say thanks. I needed to be reminded today that I am the one responsible for my happiness no matter what affliction is brought upon me.

Thanks!

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