Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Not Sure How I Feel

I'm not sure why I'm blogging about this. Only my immediate family and a couple of close friends know. Maybe I am because I know I can't be the only one in the world going through something like this and who knows...maybe they will find this blog and know too.

I am meeting with an OB oncologist tomorrow morning. For about 10 1/2 months now I've been experiencing MAJOR changes with my body. I though that things would get better but they haven't. So I finally called my OB and explained what's going on. She ordered some blood work and an ultrasound. When she called me back she told me that I have a cyst on my left ovary. She left it at that. She didn't tell me what kind I had or anything like that.

Then a couple weeks later a miracle happened. I received a copy of the ultrasound report in the mail. Yes, I do have a cyst but it's not a normal cyst. It's called a complex sepated cyst. I googled it and was really suprised to read about them.

I didn't feel comfortable with my OB taking this so lightly. But I didn't know what to do either. After much thought and prayer I decided that I needed a second opinion. I just never realized that a second opinion would be from an oncologist.

Am I scared? No. Am I anxious? Yes. I want and need some answers. I am tired of feeling like this. It's getting worse not better and I really want to take care of things. I know things will be ok. But it's so nerve racking.

I miss my family. I feel so alone even though Steve is right here supporting me. I'm not sure why I feel like this. I hope I'll feel a little bit more like myself tomorrow. I'll let you know how my appointment goes.


Melanie said...

Wow, Hang in there. You are in my thoughts and Prayers.

Shafferprincess said...

Wow, Tami! I have no advice for you, but I'll keep you in my prayers. I hope your oncologist can figure something out to get you feeling better!

SueBrown said...

Just wanted you to know you are in my prayers and I am thinking about you always..wish I could be there to give you a hug. I am anxious to read the outcome....
Love you the most,
Aunt Sue

Aubrey Garff said...

love you girl, please keep me updated.

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