Not Sure How I Feel

I'm not sure why I'm blogging about this. Only my immediate family and a couple of close friends know. Maybe I am because I know I can't be the only one in the world going through something like this and who knows...maybe they will find this blog and know too.

I am meeting with an OB oncologist tomorrow morning. For about 10 1/2 months now I've been experiencing MAJOR changes with my body. I though that things would get better but they haven't. So I finally called my OB and explained what's going on. She ordered some blood work and an ultrasound. When she called me back she told me that I have a cyst on my left ovary. She left it at that. She didn't tell me what kind I had or anything like that.

Then a couple weeks later a miracle happened. I received a copy of the ultrasound report in the mail. Yes, I do have a cyst but it's not a normal cyst. It's called a complex sepated cyst. I googled it and was really suprised to read about them.

I didn't feel comfortable with my OB taking this so lightly. But I didn't know what to do either. After much thought and prayer I decided that I needed a second opinion. I just never realized that a second opinion would be from an oncologist.

Am I scared? No. Am I anxious? Yes. I want and need some answers. I am tired of feeling like this. It's getting worse not better and I really want to take care of things. I know things will be ok. But it's so nerve racking.

I miss my family. I feel so alone even though Steve is right here supporting me. I'm not sure why I feel like this. I hope I'll feel a little bit more like myself tomorrow. I'll let you know how my appointment goes.